[vic152uh]

Hey there,

Firstly, well done for being so strong and putting yourself and your children first. You have clearly been trapped in a hugely toxic and damaging relationship so the strength it must have taken to leave shouldn’t be underestimated.

It’s time to put yourself first. After living with an addict for so long, as well as caring and protecting 4 children, probably means you have been at the bottom of a very long list.

You need to start rebuilding your life, slowly. Think about your needs for a change, what do you want? Whether it be a new job, joining a gym, taking up a new hobby, whatever.

Small steps but as you take them you will move further away from him and the toxic life you have left behind.

Best of luck to you

[g76]

Thank you so much for replying . I got myself a part time job and that has given me independence that I wasn’t allowed to have for a long time . I’ve started to write a book about my experience too .

For me it’s the loneliness after an abusive relationship with an addict . I don’t trust anyone . I’ve lived with lies every day for 5 years so for me walking out my front door every day is hard if that makes sense . I’ve thought about maybe finding someone else but then i panic at the thoughts . I don’t think I could ever be intimate with a man again . I think I’ll join al anon to get some support though and might make new friends through that .

I know none of the abuse was my fault but I just can’t stop thinking about if my ex will find someone new and treat her better … if that happens it will kill me inside . I think I’m emotionally damaged if that makes sense .

Anyway thank you for taking the time to reply to me and thank you so much for the advice x

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