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I have been with my husband for 5 years we have a son and married only 5 months ago. My husband is addicted to cocaine and I don’t no which way to turn. It all started a couple of months before our wedding and I noticed a complete change in his behaviour. At the time we were living with my parents and they too had noticed a change in his behaviour and were very worried about it. He was working late hours and would then come home and not sleep all night long and be in and out of the house all night. Everything came to a head the weekend before our wedding when he finally admitted he had been taking cocaine he said he had no idea why he had done this and it would all stop.
After our wedding we had a few days off together and all was great but as soon as he went back to work he started again. Things have now spiralled out of control. We do nothing but argue, I am so worried about losing our house. He has taken out loans credit cards and overdrafts. I have taken a loan out to pay off debts as he has let dealers know where we live.
He went to one NA meeting and did 18 days without anything. In those 18 days I had the person I fell in love with back and we had no arguments but he has gone back to taking it again.
I love him so much but I cannot live this way anymore my parents have no idea about his drug use and I feel embarrased as we only just got married. When he has taken drugs he is so paranoid and he has accused me of having affairs with two of his friends.
My son is the most important thing to me and i know this situation is not good for him or me. I think the best thing is for me to leave my husband but then i worry so much as I know he will be much worse without me and I worry he will end up dead.
I’m so confused and need some help and advice.

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