Hi,
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sorry that you are feeling so stressed and emotional about your feelings for your wife due to her drug habit.
If you would like to talk with someone who would understand what you are feeling, please get in touch with us at Icarus Trust as we are a charity that supports people who are dealing with addiction in their family.
We have experienced and trained people called Family Friends and one of them would talk with you if you get in touch. Maybe talking will help you to sort out how you feel and where to go next.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.