[kasiesta223]

Hi!

I want to share my story so maybe I can finally understand if I am doing things right or not as I’m getting confused all the time…

I’ve married an addict but when we married he was off meth for 6 years. It all started shortly before marriage when his doctor prescribed him ADHD meds which of course has amphetamine inside.

First of all I just don’t understand this doctor as he knew he was a drug addict before.

So he started to take those and of course they helped him to put things straight in his brain as he has adhd at the end anyways.

But at some point he wanted more and he reached out to his old dealer and started to use again. Of course things were not easy also… newly wed, corona situation, problems etc… life isn’t so exciting when suddenly you have so much responsibilities I guess.

Once at 3 months after wedding he was physically abusive to me but also to his mom at this point. He went into some kind of psychosis or whatever after alcohol.

It happened later that he was throwing things or make me generally be scared of him a lot and stressed.

We tried a lot with this meds. He stopped them for a while . Later I was controlling dosage but this didn’t work either. Recently he got different meds which are not so strong but of course now he went back to old meds without me even knowing it. But of course I recognized the patterns that something is wrong again as he disappear for a nights and doesn’t sleep at all. I still don’t know if he is using drugs this time or it’s just meds. He says he was not taking drugs for 3 weeks but now can I know.

I don’t trust him at all. I plan to leave and he thinks that he is not doing anything to me directly and it’s not really a reason for me to leave. And he leaves me this notes now that he doesn’t want to be alone, that I hurt him, I abandoned him etc.

I feel bad because of it of course. Because I would like to help him but I don’t think I have enough energy for this.

I love him still of course and it’s not helping.

He said he will go for therapy but still he didn’t.

I’m also afraid of being alone. Because he is a good guy inside anyways.

I don’t really know what to do and if I should give him another chance again.

I just hope maybe here someone has similar problem so we can chat about it…

[gaxi]

I understand you! kinda in the same boat. but my husband refuses help. I don’t know what to do anymore i love him but i don’t want to be in this situation. Good luck to you!

[kasiesta223]

How is it with you then ? And what you planning to do ?

If you want you can tell me more about your situation 🙂

[pamelajones]

hello

[pamelajones]

Thanks to Dr Rashmir she can treat your addiction problems she helped me regain back myself just get to her she’ll help // t.r.i.p.p.y.v.i.b.e.s.7.8.@.g.m.a.i.l.c.o.m

[holistiff]

Hi Kasiesta!

I’m in a very similar situation as you. I, too met my now husband right before the Covid shutdown. He was clean off adderall (used meth before) for 8 months but we did recreational drugs together since we wanted to do it together. After that, he kept on relapsing. I can use it responsibly as I do have ADHD too, as does he. But I’ve learned to control it when I became a holistic nutritionist. Long story short, after two years he finally admitted to himself he is an addict where he denied it before and didn’t commit to smart recovery or therapy. He almost lost his job at Delta where he’s still on probation because he relapsed. He can take 8-12 30mg in a period of a couple of hours! I’m sure he’ll suffer long term irreversible damage to his brain. This will also affect the way he matures (if he ever does). At this point, I have to protect myself. Words don’t mean anything. Only actions matters. He’s my twin flame so I’m quite torn to having to annul it the 3RD time! But I have to do what’s best for me. I gave him too many chances and I have noticed that I’ve spoiled him and he is now taking advantage of my generosity and kindness. Let me know if you’re still in the same situation or if you have moved on! Best of luck!

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