Hi,
Thank you for posting and I’m glad that it has made you feel better.
If you would like to talk with someone who would understand how you feel, please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers a free service to people like you who are having to cope with a family member’s addiction. You could talk with one of our trained people if you think that would be useful.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you are able to make sense of how you are feeling.
All the best.