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Hey everyone, I’ve been with my partner for going on 13 years. He’s older then me by a few years so he’s been

In this world a little longer then I have. So I feel like he’s set in his ways in away. We have a babygirl together. We share a home together and up until the pandemic hit everything was fine or at least it seemed fine. Unfortunately I had to leave work due to COVID 19. Before all this happened my husband cared for our daughter while I went to work which was perfect. He did a great job and life was good. But I noticed a change a month into me leaving my job. He started drinking and hanging out much much more. He stayed out all night, wouldn’t answer his phone and will tell me he was at a friend house. When we first met he told me he smoked what’s called PCP. And he would disappear for weeks and months at a time back then but I was younger and didn’t think much of it. That was before we became a couple. I knew something was off but I tried to look past it because I loved him. A few months gos by and he’s still showing the same behavior but I saw that he was trying to make a change so I stop bringing it up. I go to my routine doctors appointment and a few days later I get a call back from my doctor saying I’m positive for and STD. Now I’ve only been with him for the past going on 13 years so now I’m confused and I’m crying because I can’t believe he would cheat on me. So I told he the news and at first he tried to deny it. Then he tells me it only happened once. I get upset and we have a big argument. A week later he leaves and doesn’t call or come home for days and weeks. Then one day almost a month later he comes around and he looks a lot thinner and then I find a crack pipe in his car. So now I’m nervous and really concerned because not only is he smoking PCP but he’s also smoking a drug which is known to be crack cocaine. It’s been almost 5 months since this has been going on. I offered to help but it doesn’t seem like he wants the help to be honest. I’ve found drugs as well as the crack pipe around the house and in his clothes when I do the laundry. He always tells me that the drugs belong to someone else. He doesn’t like to come around when I’m home. He’ll call me to check where I’m at before he comes home. He’s wracked 2 cars. I’m just so over it and stressed out. I’m trying to stay strong for my baby. She needs me and I need her more because if it wasn’t for her I would have gone insane. This is killing me inside and he doesn’t seem to understand that this is affecting not only him but us to. I feel so depressed and just need to take the right steps to get out of this relationship. I’m drained and over it!!!

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