Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story and I’m glad you have found this forum so, hopefully, you will know that you are not alone in what you are going through.
I’m glad that you are having counselling but if you would like any more support, or just someone to talk with, who would understand, please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people dealing with addiction in their family and we have trained and experienced people you could talk with if you get in touch.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.