Hi Bethany,
Thank you for posting. I’m so sorry to read what a terrible time you are having and that you feel so helpless.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust that supports the friends and families who are dealing with a loved one’s addiction. We know how very hard and stressful this is so we offer a free service called ‘Family Friends ‘ that you might want to use. These are our experienced trained volunteers who would understand just what you are going though. Talking with one of them might help you to feel less helpless and more able to cope. They would also be able to signpost you to other services that are available.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I do hope that this is helpful and that you are able to get some help and support.