Hi Tim,
Thank you for sharing your story and explaining your addiction. I really hope that you can kick the drugs and the hurt they make you feel. You clearly want to.
I expect you have already spoken to your GP and maybe have been having some counselling. Or you could talk with us at The Icarus Trust.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I am really hoping to read of how well you are doing. Very best of luck.