[rosyangel]

Hi,

I need some insight/help/advice.

I’ll try to be brief. My boyfriend and I have been togheter for almost 3 years now, but it has been rocky after the frist 4 months.

After that he started acting very different. Alot of the stories I read on here pretty much already describe it. Like les contact, sleeps alot but weird hours, depressed and agitated etc etc. Back then lots of nightly car cruising. He ignored me for a while back then and came back acting a bit better. Back then I suspected alot of things, also drug use but i figured it was “Just depression” i also new he smoked weed/hash and that he sometimes lied about things. ( i’m probably leaving some stuff out because it has been so long etc)

Last summer I did notice him using my bathroom alot, I found brown thick sticky spots on my bathroom sink but didnt know from what. Also sometimes found yellow powder residu. And again he never wanted to do anything and was always agitated or on some rare days nice.

After another while I was waiting for him in his car and saw something shiny I recognised (a grinder we bought togheter once, which he said was for a friend and after that: no it wasnt its for me..) so I picked it up without thinking and next to it was a glass bottle filled to the brim with yellowish powder (exact same I’ve seen before) as I was startled and needed to do some thinking and get the nerve to speak up, I asked him about it 3 weeks later and asked him to be honest. He acted like I treated him as a coke junky ( I did think thats what it was but didnt say that, I was calm too) but he was sure I was out of my mind, he couldnt imagine what it was I had found. He guessed a small glass yar of hash ( i know what that lookes like and no it was not) I let it rest and for a little while he acted different and also didnt use the bathroom as much.

Towards the end of the year he acted meaner and indifferent again. ( i forgot to mention he pretty much never wants to have sex even though in the beginning of the relationship he said he was afraid he wanted it too much)

We had 1 good weekend, he even helped me buy a car and for the first time expressed wanting to move in togheter. 3 days later I was having an off day, was annoyed and send him a thumbs up. He didnt speak to me for a month, hearing from his mom that he was mainly sleeping during the day and up till 5 am. Later I did hear he met with friends a few times. ( he is a 30 year old living at his parents)

I asked him if we should break up, he said no and came back and we spent christmas togheter. But he was very mellow the first few days, spent the days on the sofa playing video games with my daughter but had very red cirkel eyes and spent alot of time in the bathroom again. ( face as a corpse and can go a day without eating)

At this time I was also cleaning my house alot and saw dark almost black runny spots on the sink, i thought I was losing my mind. I cleaned it thorougly to see if it came back when he was here. But I also expressed my concern for how bad/sick he looked and suddenly no more weird bathroom visits and his mood went down.

The glass botlle I mentioned earlier, I did see again ( so I already knew I’m not that insane). But the first time it had some left over weed in it. This week I noticed a little rolled up black ball. Could be hash.

An hour ago I saw that there was again brown thick stuff but this time on the side of the faucet.

He never seems to be honest, also text alot with friends but not with me. Other than that pretty much everything I have seen described as coke users behaviour. But the brown spots would make me think of heroïne. I’m convinced he is using something other than weed or hash but no clue how he is paying for it.

I am wondering if there is a testing kit I can get somewhere that helps me test the brown residu ( I really want to know but dont have alot of money right now so it need to be cheap) and maybe someone has some more insight for me. Sorry for the long post

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