I’m rhe same I feel like I’ve no one to talk to so now and then come on here and vent ,so sorry to for your loss, hope your all OK, I don’t think a coke addict has the ability to feel for anyone or anything, don’t take it personally, I still do tbh , just keep telling yourself your doing a great job ,you are strong and will get strong enough to break away , I luckily don’t have kids with my bf , it sounds nuts but I vent to my phone lol I go on my notes and I write down how I’m feeling and I write as if I’m talking to him directly doesn’t change things but it gets it all out my system x