So sorry for your loss! ❤️ I can’t imagine what you’re going through! I noticed you have posted your forum on the ‘share your story’ if you scroll down further there is a bereavement section and there may be many people in your position going trough the same thing. It’s always good to talk, this forum has helped me although my circumstances are different, it’s like a mini counselling session at times, but professional counselling can always be helpful. Once again I’m sorry for your loss x