Hi,
I’m so sorry that you are having to deal with your dad’s alcoholism without any support. That’s really hard and must be very stressful for you.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We provide help and support for people like you who are affected by a family member’s addiction. We have people you could talk with who are trained and experienced. They would listen to you, answer some of your questions and let you know what other support is available. Hopefully they would help you find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Wishing you all the best.