[jessepie]

Hi guys, im new to this so bare with me????

Me and my partner have known each other around 16 years and been together for 11. We have a house together and two young children.

We were so happy until around two years ago, when i found out he was taking coke. The past two years have made me unbelievably miserable.

In october 2019 myself and the kids moved out of our home to my parents for two weeks as i dont think its safe for my children to be around him, he was leaving packets and rolled up money still with coke residue on, he even left some one the floor in our living room in reach of the kids!!!!

He promised he would stop so i bought some drugs tests. He failed two!!

I kind of put up with his vile nasty behaviour , constantly making me cry and arguing and emotionally abusing me all infront of the kids.

In march this year i found more evidence of drug use, he did another test and failed! So we moved to my parents again, this time for a month as he refused to move out. In this time i decided enough was enough and i wasnt prepared to put my kids in anymore dangerous scenarios or situations. I applied to the court for a non molestion order and occupation order so we could return home safely without him being there. This took a few days to coke through and there was no contact. After being back home for a month he was begging me to give him another chance telling me had stopped. I agreed to cancel the court orders if he agreed to do two drug tests a week. He came home and two weeks after he failed another drug test. He denied it all ofcourse, making me doubt myself constantly and wonder if im doing the right thing by my kids by keeping him away!i applied back to the court to get the orders put back in place so he cant turn up whenever he likes to upset us all and especially my kids!! I mean who in their right mind would want a drug addict around their children?!! He cant be trusted to not take them, he cant stop taking them even with the risk of losing his whole family! He is not the person i once knew before the drugs took hold of him! Anyone in the same boat? I need help as i dont know if im right or what to do next. I just know i cant live my life in misery or put my kids through him leaving all the time. Please help!!

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