[Anonymous]

My gifted half brother is trying to destroy himself again. Last time 7 years of heroin because his brother was lost at sea aged only 20 and he never found the body. He tortured himself. This time coke since his beloved mother died of misdiagnosis to cancer then her dogs she left with him passed gradually with age. He has had a life of pain losing everyone close to him at very young ages including his friends. Lost his job last week too through not caring. His gifted mind tortures him perpetually. What a waste of talent. Never seen an orator like him nor a person so gifted despite no education. His dad was clever too but died at 32 when he was 6 months.

He is a walking oracle but he is trying to commit slow suicide with buckfast and coke. Couldn’t even care about his job. Since my mums last dog died he has gave up. Last thing he cared about. It has torn his heart out. He has gambled away a fortune because he can’t take it with him he says and couldn’t care. Got himself arrested for the first time on wed for breach of peace where he stays shouting and screaming like a maniac after arguement with GF and smashing the house up. Hates all the world apart from his heroes Hitler, Alexander the Great, Hannibal, Napoleon etc etc (he has many), His football team Celtic, the IRA, the SNP, Nazis and so on. He is extremely well read and travelled and has survived everything life has thrown at him nevermind the excessive self inflicted damage he has done to himself that alone he should have succumbed to. Yet at 41 he has fell off a cliff again hellbent on destroying himself. Somebody help please. He has soooo much to give and learn people. I don’t want him ending up like some of his dead music or poetry idols of a broken heart and too much excess..

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