So I’ve posted before about my partner who is an addict. Gambling first, then drink but recently I’ve noticed drug use. White powder everywhere, staying up late, not eating. I bought kits online, gathered some of the powder I found mixed it with water and tested it. Positive for cocaine. I’ve asked him to go back to his parents (he was there from October – December last year because of the drinking). He’s gone and I feel sad, angry. Relieved almost. He said that I should be supporting him not chucking him out but he refuses to go to any type of GA, AA or DA. It’s basically just antidepressants from the doctor and me. I can’t cope. I know I need to look after myself but why do I feel so bad about it?