[jellybean]

Hi Guys,

First time Coming on here and it’s good to know I’m not the only one going through the process.

I’m 40, 3 kids, married and a professional.

My addiction started a few years ago nothing triggered it only the way I felt when I took them. I started buying from the chemist over the counter so not the 30/500 the money I spent is embarrassing and for what? I then, because we are sneaky right?! Started hitting different chemists. I needed more and more for the buzz. Anyway I’m on day 3 of being clean and boy is it hard . I have been shaking- more tremors, sweating like I never thought possible, running to the toilet every hour(first two days) I haven’t slept in 3 days, restless legs at night these are the worse I feel like climbing the walls,anxiety is huge along with feeling emotional. But do you know what? I’m doing this because I have a family that loves me and needs me and I won’t let them down. Popping pills every hour and being wiped has stopped. I’m doing it for me too because I’m over feeling tired everyday, thinking I need them to function. I’ve taken another week off work so I can get through this. We can do this guys!!! Dig deep we got this!!!

[lindyloo]

Hi Jellybean, welcome to the forum. Thank you for sharing your story and recognising that this addiction is slowly taking over your life.

I wondered if I could direct you to the other blue highlighted heading-

Drugs, alcohol and Mental Health.

There’s a thread saying “Day 18..

By Dadict. Its quite a long thread but it is mostly people like yourself, trying to stop these addictive type drugs- and the group there all support each other

Congratulations on day 3 , that’s brilliant.

I wish you well Jellybean, addiction is a terrible illness. My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, thankfully over 1 yr clean thanks to sheer willpower, and AA and CA groups.

Lx

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