Thanks for sharing your story. I’m sorry you are having such a difficult time coping with your partner’s addiction and it’s sad that you feel so isolated.
Please contact us at The Icarus Trust if you think it would be of help. We are a charity that provides support to people who are living with the affect of a family member’s addiction. We know how hard it is so we have experienced trained people you could talk with if you get in touch.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.