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my son has had drug use issues for some time ( aprox 4 years). He has also suffered from depression and anxiety issues. My first husband committed suicide when my son was only 7 years old.
Recently my son had an episode of aggression and violence following frequent heroin use followed by a benzodiazepine binge ( I think he took this to help him with withdrawal). We tried to cope with him, but after 24 hours we eventually had to call the police. He had smashed up several things in the house including 2 doors and assaulted both his stepdad and myself.
He was remanded in custody for 4 weeks until his trial. Over the first 3 weeks he improved greatly looking healthier and more lucid than I had seen him in years, and he was keen for change. He then saw the psychiatrist – he had to have a report for the court. Something happened then, he seemed to spiral down and become depressed, or could he have got hold of dugs in the young offenders institute? The psychiatrists report stated that he did not have any mental health issues and was not addicted to drugs ( something we find unbelievable)
He was released on 18 months community payback, having to attend a social worker and drug counselling. We were keen for him to go to rehab and are willing to pay for this. He went for a visit but this did not go well. The following day he had his first Social worker attendance but he failed to attend, by the time we got home he was completely off his head on drugs. Since then he seems to have been using very heavily and was in a terrible state on Friday when he was supposed to attend a housing meeting he failed to turn up at the social worker yet again. I worry he will go back to jail because of his refusal/inability to attend. He also seems to have hit the “self destruct” button and he has talked about taking his own life, I worry he will overdose. I took him to the doctor but he came out with antacids only, so I do not think he told the doctor about his mental state. Every time I knock on his door to ask if he is ok I am terrified I will not get a reply. There appears to be no help for my son or ourselves. No-one wants to help us and I cannot stop my son going deeper and deeper into his drug use. I fear for his life and our safety if he comes out f this binge.

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