Hi everyone. Don’t really know how to start this off so il just jump in, I’ve been using cocaine now for at least 12 years. The last 18 months it really got a grip of me and I lost everything. Wife, kids, home. I never really thought about the effects on my family. All I thought about was my next line. It got so bad that I took myself away and went missing for a week. I planned on ending it all because I wasn’t good enough for my family. Because I was too weak and powerless to fight. Thankfully my family still wanted to help me and after coming clean about everything I could finally move forward. Is anybody else at the start of there recovery or any tips how to beat the beast in your head