Thanks for sharing your story and for your message to others. I’m sorry to read how your son’s addiction affects you. I know it’s hard to deal with all the mixed feelings that it brings.
I’m glad you have other family around you that keeps you strong, but if you would like any more support for yourself please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity offering support to people in your situation, and if you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained and experienced people who you could talk with.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck and keep strong.