I’m so sorry your having to deal with this on your own, it’s lonely when people either know and leave you too it so they don’t have to deal with it or don’t know as your ashamed to tell people like I me. It’s alcohol with my partner, I can feel I’m at a crossroads after he relapsed recently. Do I continue with this way of life waiting for a further relapse ? That’s if he does get sober this time. Is this my life now, thankfully I’m financially independent but emotionally it’s so draining and upsetting, we love them but hate their addiction.