Hey
Thanks for posting.
Growing up with parents who have a drink problem is tough. Unless you have a dependency on alcohol it’s very unlikely you would understand why people behave like this, and why drink comes above anything else and nor should you either.
It’s easy to say to people in the situation you are in that it isn’t your problem, but the fact is it is. You want your dad to be there, to be interested, to participate in your life and to be a parent to you.
Before anything else there are two things
One can you get some support? Whether that be counselling, or help from Al anon who are set up to help relatives of alcoholics, there you will find lots of people in your situation
Secondly, have you tried to talk or address anything with him yet? I’m wondering if he would be receptive to this or now – had to ask
Please post back and stay strong