Hi
Thankyou for sharing your story. I’m sorry to read how affected you are by your husband’s alcohol and cocaine use. and how it makes you feel.
Maybe you would like to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help to families around addicts because we know how hard it can be to cope with this. We have trained and experienced people who would understand what you are going through and talking to one of them might help you to find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Good luck with everything.