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Hi, I’m suffering from the same problem, my husband is a crack addict. We’ve been together 14 years and 3 kids , and he was always a crack addict, but I didn’t know or understand, he was so smart and successful, he was always traveling and covering this addiction, now he doesn’t have a job ( he still have money to buy and he still managing his money and work online everyday ) but he s home working .. and he has changed , he cheated a lot with prostitutes, it broke my heart, my life .. I own nothing, all assets in his name, my law doesn’t even give me the kids, he was always avoiding me having any cash or job , and I was doing my best for my kids and family, we were always abroad so I didn’t have family to help, only maids that I couldn’t trust .. but this is not an excuse , I trusted him and I thought he care for me .. now I discovered all this shit ( excuse my language) I’m in pain all the time, I don’t focus on my kids much, i don’t know how to deal with this, he act careless like he doesn’t care for me, I don’t even feel he’s jealous , I asked many times for divorce , he say I will kill u and I will never divorce u ( again my law will not support me ) coz he is paying bills .. he doesn’t want me out of his life , all his friends they beg me to be patiente bcoz he love me so much and he cannot live without me, and that he might commit suicide if I left !! I was scared first! Now I feel I don’t care But I don’t have law to support me, I don’t know how to start a job or a small business, I never had a job in my life, I married straight after university graduation, he’s 8 years older than me. I managed to recover form panic attack’s and anxiety without any medications, i have happy beautiful kids that I don’t want them to get affected .. but I’m scared coz he’s getting worse .. he has changed a lot .. he doesn’t care for me , he cares that his kids don’t know about his addiction but I don’t know with time he might be careless to his kids too! I’m always scared and not feeling safe from our future ..

anyway, thank you for this discussion, it feels good just to open up and share what inside us with people who understand or live the same problems ..

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