This is so hard, especially being alone in your grief however, Esta is right, you took the first step and now keep on going. You’ve done what’s right in the long run for you and your family. You deserve more and to be happy. I know it’s so much easier said than done but you’ve overcome one of the hardest parts by taking the first step, many of us are yet to be as brave and strong. Your not alone (albeit I know internet support is not the same) but hopefully can help you keep going Xxx