[anon123xxxxxx]

Honestly I’ve been on anti depressants for about 8 months now due to the stress and anxiety it has given me. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through this, I’m scared my boyfriend will move to harder drugs. I can tell how much he wants it but sometimes his mind just goes into such a dark place, he’s a boxer and if he lets himself down his future is destroyed but I need to start focusing on me because I’m 21 I’ve barely lived I shouldn’t have to be going through this & I’ve honestly complemented starting a family to see if it would fix things but I’m not ready for any of that. Thank you so much for taking your time to talk I really appreciate it. It’s his party tonight and I had no sleep last night but I’m hoping he will just try his best, we have some drug tests too just to make sure! My boyfriend was SA as a child, we took him to doctors, they’ve changed his medication now so hopefully this will be a dramatic change but just gonna keep going ???? xx

[anon123xxxxxx]

Thankyou so much for your reply, it’s nice to know it’s not just me going through this atm. I’m 21 and this has caused me severe anxiety and sometimes I feel depressed. He went 6 months without it and almost a year the time before & i feel like I’m just waiting for the next time for it to happen all the time, my trust builds back up and we end up at square one. I’ve been spending loads of times with my friends since the last time this happened before the other day and that has helped. Hardest thing is it feels like it should get easier every relapse but it just gets harder. Unfortunately I just don’t think he’s ready for going out drinking yet because that’s when he tends to reach for it and they do it in the most malicious and secretive ways.

Do you think change is possible?

Thank you, you too x

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