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He was still saying this when he wasn’t under the influence of drugs and said I need to be put somewhere away from everywhere so I can keep everyone safe I love my family this isn’t me please ???????? I can’t believe a doctor can listen to that and just be like yeah ok bye. Wtf

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This is bizarre because the way you explain ‘switched’ is what my brother does too, and also my brother is saying he’s fantasising about killing people when he is switching and then keeps screaming crying saying no I didn’t say that no I didn’t I don’t know who I am etc it’s so distressing because he is the kindest, sensitive person you could ever know. I honestly think he’s got some sort of borderline personality disorder or some sort of personality disorder, whether it’s from drugs chemically altering his brain or not I’m not sure. But it is very strange for them to say these things when that is not them at all? It’s almost like a demon is taking over them and I’m not superstitious or religious or anything but that’s how it feels

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hi guys. update.

my brother got released from section despite begging not to be allowed out.

within a couple of hours, i was frantically calling a police and ambulance as my brother had used a kitchen knife to slice up his arms and get in to his arteries to die. same thing happened, police came and took him to hospital, got seen and no mental health assessment and released, ward f wouldn’t take him. more neglect of a vunerable person.

he’s been holding on all day while me and my family try to find urgent inpatient care for him, which is not easy and not getting anywhere.

because my brother has been coming off opiates, his body is in physical pain too. my mother rang the GP to get him urgent withdrawal meds. they shunned her, like always.

this is the last straw. i wrote an email to my MP which actually resulted in a phone call from a mp that has actually gone further and is urgently trying to find us help as she believes this is atrocious and should not happen.

my brother has been off substances for 4 days now, and tried his best today until we found him some help, but unfortunately whilst my mother was upstairs he got out of the house and found drugs to self medicate to ease the symptoms of withdrawal. this is bad news as now if help does come, he may be so intoxicated they cant do a mental health assessment on him.

i am so annoyed, this is absolute neglect and it seems like you are all getting it too.

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its just me i am so so so so sorry, i am crying my eyes out reading your post as i cant imagine that pain. i feel as if i am grieving my brother who is still alive, because the way he is now doesn’t feel like he’s living.

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my brother only started taking drugs as a way to get rid of his PTSD symptoms, because he sees rapist in front of him and sometimes he has seizures and when he wakes up he thinks family members are the abusers. its so traumatic. i wouldn’t want to live one minute in my brothers head. he is looking for an outlet to help ease the pain which is drugs because of how much the mental health service is failing him 🙁

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us too. literally everything. what is left to do? leave our loved ones die?

its so frustrating we are all going through this

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hi. i truly feel your pain and emphasise totally, honestly. my brother is only 21 and he is the same as your brother but with drugs not alcohol. he’s been on section 3 times and within days he is released because the NHS aren’t equipped to deal with people with mental health problems and addiction. its truly heart wrenchingly frustrating that there is NO help unless you have thousands of pounds for private treatment which we are currently trying to arrange now.

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Hi Claire, I am so so so sorry you’re going through this. I am also to the point where my eyes are black from being traumatised and sick with worry. I have 2 jobs and doing a masters degree and I am holding on to my sanity by the skin of my teeth, I’m only 23 and I don’t know if I can cope much longer feeling this way. I feel as if the Nhs are failing my family.

Yes I am looking in to a 12 step program right now. at this point we are desperate.

I’m so sorry about your brother relapsing. Please reply I’d like to talk to you more, it seems like we need eachother in this.

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Mark. I am sending you a virtual hug back. This is so distressing and the feeling of helplessness is absolutely all consuming. I wish all of us on this forum could meet in person and talk. It’s really hard to talk in this format but better than nothing!

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Hi ivy,

I am absolutely sick to my core to say the exact same thing has happened to my brother, and he got released yesterday after pleading with the staff not to let him out.

Within an hour, he had attempted to take his own life 4 times in front of me using a knife, the police came and took him to hospital for his wounds and is now back in the f ward where this cycle is going to happen again.

I emphasise with you so deeply. They say they same thing about ‘sorting the drugs out first’ well he WANTS to but he takes drugs to deal with his mental trauma! They treated me so badly when I went to get him yesterday because my parents wouldn’t because they can’t have him in our homes he is a danger to himself and others. My mother brought him home to sort out temporary accommodation and because of covid they haven’t let him in anywhere so he got hopeless and psychotic again (without drugs) and started to hurt himself and almost bled out.

I am not sure I can do this all over again Ivy when he gets released. I can’t believe how badly the NHS mental health service is

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He’s been sectioned on section 2 and can’t come out for 28 days now. We aren’t allowed to visit because of covid 🙁 but this is the best outcome as horrid as it sounds

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I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this and your internal battle. My brother also needs cannabis he said it helps more than most things, but unfortunately he is on a concoction of abour 10 different drugs paired with bottles of vodka a day the last few days. He’s there now and it’s been about 9 hours since he got sectioned but I am absolutely praying he’s truthful to them and they’ll keep him in, I do not see how they could discharge someone who ran out in to the road with a knife in public threatening to Jill themselves thinking they are in another world, surely?

I hope you are doing alright and I’m glad you’ve found this forum to share and relate and talk. It’s much better than holding it in.

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