Sorry to hear your story. I had very similar 6 years ago and finally got out so there is hope. I tried and failed so many times with friends and family not understanding why I kept going back. We have 2 children together and that was the reason. I kept thinking it would be for the best. One day when he was kicking off and saying he wasn’t drunk something clicked and I walked. It hasn’t been easy and I struggle knowing what I should or shouldn’t be doing with the children. He used to see them and it got to point where I didn’t know if he would be sober so stopped contact. Sorry for essay, my first time on here!,