Thank you for your reply. It’s so difficult isn’t it. Part of me wants to just up and leave but I am the same, I love him deeply but I can’t deal with his drinking. He has 2 children aged 15 and 20 and mine are 10 and 6 so makes life more complicated and I would literally have nothing if I left. I would have thought after what his kids went through with his wife that he would think twice about his drinking and how it will affect them. I came out of a rubbish marriage with a husband who cheated and he uses the line ‘would you rather be with a cheat’ but in my eyes, his drinking and lying about it, is just as bad, if not worse. I just can’t see an end to it.