[arina]

My husband is a cocaine addict.

He was trying to stop as well, went to the group therapy and to a number of psychiatrists. It didnt help.

He is not my loving husband any more, when he is high it’s just like a shell of a person. He was breaking his promises almost every week, he was mentally and emotionally abusing me. He was disappearing from time to time for couple of days, forgetting about the family holidays, anniversaries and birthdays. After he will come back and will beg to forgive him, that it was not him, that he loves me more than anything and will do everything for me and he need to get help and he will get help. And in couple of weeks or days he will forget about how bad it was and will start again. And with the time it all gets just worse and worse and he need to take more and more.

Im not a happy person any more, every day I expect that he will do something stupid. I have a sickening feeling in my stomach and a kind of panic feeling. I’m not enjoying going out with him any more or visiting friends, all the time Im tense. I started to have psychological problems myself. I was hoping that he will stop but I think it will never happen. And now I dont know what to do…I love him, but I cant live like this no more

[Author]

Posts