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Hey everyone.
Posted a while ago but it deleted itself somehow.
My journey began when I had a couple surgery’s over the years and was prescribed a short prescription of Oxycodone. It was the best feeling I had ever felt but obviously I only had it for a week or so those few times.
Years went on without incident and I discovered Rikodeine. I would start by having 50ml which quickly turned into 1 – 2 200ml bottles a day which became very expensive. This has lasted about 2 years with myself going through 6 withdrawal periods lasting between 9 days – 6 weeks.
Those withdrawal periods were absolute hell consisting of horrible sweats, terrible aching lower back, fatigue, no appetite etc… It did however get better after a week but the boredom and light depression was difficult to deal with.
I used to be so happy, loved gym, loved work etc… it kills me knowing I’ve ruined all that by abusing rikodeine. As now I don’t find many things enjoyable and have skipped gym the last year.
The last 2 withdrawal periods I got through and felt better and thought I could do a little bit of rikodeine for a couple days without incident. This turned into a few weeks both times which resulted in withdrawals again…
Just don’t do it again as it will trap you like it did to me. You think you’ll do it a little bit but it sneaks up on you and by then you’re weeks in and have to go through the dreaded withdrawals again.I am currently on day 3 cold turkey and the last 2 days were a massive struggle. I am feeling loads better today which I attribute to some exercise, music and a positive attitude. Ofcourse I don’t feel great but it’s a lot better than the past 2 days.
The thing I am most disappointed in is the fact I have gotten through withdrawals multiple times and ruined it by doing opioids again. My wife and family think I’m just getting really sick which I play into but it’s really hard keeping it a secret. There is no chance they can find out.
I believe I can beat it this time as I genuinely have felt the impact of beating withdrawals and getting sucked back into it and how bad that makes you feel.
Good luck everyone.
Couldn’t handle the last 2 nights of zero sleep. Felt like a zombie today at work. Went to drs and he gave me Valium to help sleep. I really hope this helps with RLS and gives me some sleep as I remember last time I had RLS I took a sleeping tablet which made it worse and I had zero sleep whilst affected by the sleeping tablet which was brutal.
Short update. Went for a walk with the dogs after being stuck inside for the last few days and listened to music whilst walking. Back pain and symptoms still there, however, my mood is sky high right now. I know it’s not going to last long especially when I lay down for bed tonight and the RLS kicks in keeping me awake all night before an early start for work. I’m expecting to get an hours sleep if that. Get out there and do some walking and listening to music. Music really helped me during the last 3 withdrawal attempts and I highly suggest it.
Hello, first time poster and many time reader. Started rikodeine nearly a year ago. Was high dosing for 3 months then began cold turkey withdrawals which were very unpleasant. Lasted 9 days before doing another 3 months of the same. Lasted 9 days again cold turkey before 2 months of rikodeine high dosing. Lasted 18 days before very high dosing oxy for about a month. Currently day 6 of cold turkey and very confident I will get through this. Everyday has been a struggle and as of last night the devilish restless legs have begun. I know I have a bunch of sleepless nights ahead of me as per my last 3 withdrawal attempts. First few days were bad lower back pain and constant sweats which is a disgusting feeling. Sweats are slowly going away but my lower back is still really sore. The restless legs are by FAR the worst of it. I’m hoping my withdrawals won’t be as long as other long term users, however, judging by my last 18 days attempt it appears I’m in for a good month of shit. It’s not even that I was itching to start again, it was more I thought I could start again and stop before withdrawals began, however, I was trapped and knew I was going to have to go through this horrible period again. I am unable to tell my wife, as much as I love her, i believe she won’t take it well so I’m suffering through this alone with her believing I have a bad case of the man flu. I used to be massive (muscle) and strong constantly training and going to the gym. I haven’t been to the gym in about 7 months due to wanted to keep this “high” and chill. Even tho it was at the point it only made me feel normal. I can’t wait to eat properly again as I have no appetite and train to become what I used to be. I look at older pictures of myself and become infuriated at how I screwed it up as I never used anything, not even weed. Thanks for reading. Rant over.