[beth01]

Thank you Danman

Even though I tell myself it wasn’t my fault it’s a slippery thought that can vanish and become, perhaps it was. He had a lot of childhood trauma and because I knew about it I thought he just needed a lot of love to recover. I learnt that love is not enough the hard way. He says he’s doing AA but I don’t really think he is. Perhaps one day he will be able to face it. Well done on your recovery, you’re brave and strong. Xxx

[beth01]

That’s such a tough story Lauren. I’m so glad you’re out now. Remember you’re a queen and the next person who comes along needs to treat you like one xxx

[beth01]

That’s so true. You end up lying to protect them, trying to ignore the lies, the glazed drunken eyes, you start believing their excuses: perhaps if I was nicer, a better girlfriend, more tolerant, he’d stop. The thousands of pounds he took from me is hard to bear, particularly as he then accused me of putting him under pressure when he said he couldn’t pay for a train ticket after having told me he’d been saving money.

Alcoholism is the worst xxx

[beth01]

Hi Lauren

That’s so true, we go along for the ride and it’s only now I can see clearly how I adapted and ended up doing things I never thought I would because I hoped he would change. It’s hard picking up the pieces and trying to find the confidence to believe in yourself again xx

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