I feel your pain Sandra, my son too is a Heroin addict, he lies steals, builds up my hopes and then shoots me down, I too feel scared and sad all the time but go to work everyday ( i am a drug worker !!!) and paint a smile on my face, my heart hurts and I am sick of covering for him so his siblings and step dad dont hate him, I love him dearly and I cannot give up on him, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone x