[brokenmum82]

Speaking on these forums is a lot easier than addressing your own loved ones with these addictions. My 23 year old son who is now a father himself is denying it all, but I believe he’s in the grip of a deadly addiction to cocaine. Please make your own Mum proud, leave that crap alone and live an amazing life. It can be done, I’m certain. It’s so heartbreaking to watch a life that you created and nurtured be broken so brutally. Get the help and choose life.

[brokenmum82]

Ok so we’re nearly a year on from this post and I thought we’d turned a corner, but he’s met a new friend and has started treating us like dirt again , I can’t be certain it’s down to drug use, but the venom he had directed at me seems to be back. This time he stayed out all night (again) and didn’t let us know he was safe and then didn’t turn up to work the following day. I have bagged his clothes etc up and taken them to a flat that I guess he’s staying at. I have reached the end of my tether and can’t continue like this lying awake at night not knowing if he’s alive or dead. Even though when he came back home I set out my house rules clearly and this is a direct result of him disrespecting them, somehow I’m still in the wrong??? I feel like a punchbag for him.

[brokenmum82]

Thank you. I am pretty tough, but I’m running out of fight right now. I didn’t think I could ever feel so hurt, desolate and exhausted by my own child. I feel like somewhere I’ve failed even though the logical side of me tells me I educated my boys about the dangers of drugs and the absolute devastation they cause. It’s killing me. I may give you a call as I feel like my husband and I could do with some support with this. Thank you.

[brokenmum82]

He is nearly 20, I know I need to allow him to make this decision to help himself, and that I don’t have the power to stop him. I am doing my best to make him aware of all the dangers, and have told him that I’ll be there for him when he chooses to leave that lifestyle behind. I can’t have that evil stuff around my younger son though, I feel like I’m stuck in the middle of the two of them, but my priority at the moment is the safety and security of my younger (minor) son.

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