First time on this site, really enjoying reading through and relating to so many posts. This post and others of those struggling with c addiction are not in that category, but I feel I need to also provide info about a program called Beyond Addiction, created by Gabor Mate and Sat Dharm Kar that can be accessed online from anywhere. Its no substitute for CA, but it was very enlightening for me with my own trauma, cravings and healing. I learned a lot about why certain brains choose certain drugs and this post is reminding me of this. Not sure if appropriate, but wanted to share here.
Thinking of you all, you brave, compassionate humans.