[chellebee]

Thanks @mark I was a dick myself and had some at weekend I only had about 4 grams but still I’m so disappointed in myself again. I’m so sorry that u feel like uve given up on life that’s really sad u clearly aren’t a shit or u wouldn’t be on here trying to give advice to people like me would u please think about the good things about urself u tried to stop and that says a lot whether u managed it or not u still tried theres still time, I probs sound like am preaching here coz I’m in the same boat but it isn’t nice that u feel like that none should feel like that ????

[chellebee]

I will do thanku ????

[chellebee]

I will do thankyou so much for your help and again well done on your journeyband good luck I’ll check in and see how u are and update u on my process if u dont mind so much ur the first person ive spoke to about it and it’s really refreshing not feeling like a creature for once

[chellebee]

Thankyou so much everything you’ve said has made me feel a bit better I am absolutely surrounded by people either drinking a lot or on crack or coke it’s everywhere and it’s been so easy to get it on tick people just dropping 8ths and quarters off as soon as I ask benefits and downfalls of being a good payer, I would like to move from the general area really but my 4 year old just started school yesterday and I’ve got my neice into the same school so it’s too much change for them right now and yeah i suppose its the lonliness of having no support really am the youngest only one of all my friends who has even lost a parent let alone both of them so noone ever know what to say to me so they avoid me now and i end up feeling sorry for myself and getting on the phone but I’m definitely going to follow your advice, the you tube stories sound like something I want to listen to aswell this hole has been a blessing in disguise for me I suppose now as it’s give me a kick up the arse really I’m so glad it’s not noticeable, I would normally have got some by now so I’m trying to keep busy and not think about it. Well done to you aswell that’s amazing what you’ve done it’s really not easy is it where you using for a long time?

[chellebee]

Thanks for your reply i have an adopted kid hes my nephrw but i adopted him as a baby he’s just turned 4 last week i also have a 3 year old son of my own and now that my mum just died I have taken my 6 year old neice that she had custody of I need to get full custody of her so I couldn’t go to the doctors as they ask for full medical disclosure I only ever used it recreationally but since April I’ve gone crazy on it my mum died and my dad died before her and we have no other family I was her carer for 3 years I had to arrange all the funeral myself and sort her house her finances everything it just really was the only way i saw through it I feel like such a failure to her and my kids which was making it worse but I’m on my own and it’s hard I’ve never had a babysitter or a break from them so i started having it at weekends when they were in bed and lately it’s escalated since mum I haven’t had it for a week now since I saw the first hole

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