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I totally understand it’s hard and I know who he is now isn’t the man I fell in love with and I know he is there trying to get back to his normal self but there’s only so much I can take and having the little ones to deal with and then him it’s so hard so I just stay away and keep the kids away, I have done everything he’s asked I’ve helped in every way I can I’ve stayed up in his worse cases I’ve let him in I’ve took him turning point I’ve took him hospital when he needed to I’ve picked him up from the police station I wake up when he bangs down my door out his face I tell him I love him and I want to help and then he lies about it I’ve tried the letting him have his blow outs and he just causes too much crap with it all, I give him space and I’ve tried the staying away to make him realise what he had and instead he proves me right about all my assumptions that he’s out with another girl ‘moving on’ because (his words) I wasn’t there for him for 3 days and he was desperate for sex etc it’s like I can’t win it’s like I either put up with it and stay with him and be hurt or I leave him he moves on and he’s vile to me regardless and still hurts me and I’m getting to the point where I think enough is enough and I deserve so much better and if he wants to get better to prove to me he wants and Loves me and the kids and it’s all mistakes then he needs to do it quick before it’s too late and he looses us for good. His family have been the same using drugs so he knows what it’s like as a kid to be around a parent using so I don’t see why he would want the same for his kids?!

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Thankyou very much I’m finding reading these replies help a little & I do keep myself busy as much as I can now started reading books to literally make me fall asleep without thinking

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Yes my family were really close with him, & time after time given him chances to prove he’s going to change but failed every time of course. His family haven’t ever approved of me, I don’t know why because I have done nothing but try and help there son but it’s always my fault you see in his and there eyes. I’ve had no contact now with him neither have the kids since Sunday everydays been a a struggle but it is getting easier it’s the night time when I’m alone and kids are asleep that gets me though

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