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I did try but I didn’t feel any better I’ll try it again. I absolutely hate that I can’t switch off my feelings for him. I feel so weak. I’ve told him I’m so sick of this and if he doesn’t stop being with them for about 16 hours a day then he needs to go and I’ll find a way to make that happen even if I have to take out a injunction. I can’t keep doing my mum doesn’t the half of what has gone on but the way she looks at me when she asks would I have him back. I feel like I should lie and say never but that wouldn’t be true but I will never accept this behaviour to be honest if this Continues much more I think all feelings will disappear I think their starting to only slightly but I think they are. I’m sorry that your partner seems to have relapsed.
Thank you for being here a other lady on one of these threads she’s so strong I wish I was.
I just want him gone now. He’s making me have anxiety
No its made things a million times worse. He’s on crack and totally dependent on it his dealer can say anything and he’ll do it. He’s here now after being gone since 7.30 this morning. I’ve told him to get lost but he won’t. I need him gone now
Yes kklost he put a caravan on my front garden to live in
3boymom reading your post its like I could of wrote it. My ex is on crack and he has been for 18 months. We have 4 children and unfortunately social services are involved. And like you I can’t talk to anyone about it what he’s doing because of the shame and embarrassment I feel. Im sick to death of him. He’s so selfish. I kicked him out the house and when I went one morning I came back and a caravan was on garden he lives there. So I can’t move on which is what he wants. He’s still now been out since 8.30 this morning. I hate him but unfortunately still love him at the same time. Social services just think because he’s there I want him to be but honestly it would be easier if he wasn’t because the stress, anxiety and heartache it courses is out of this world. He says he wants help but he does nothing about getting it. The last 3 weeks he’s been stuck to his dealer like glue. I can’t deal with it but what choice do i have.
I’m ok just feeling very confused as to what to do now. I really one day I just wake up and have all the answers
Thank you for this thelostone. Im actually waiting on the police and he got violent with me earlier for the first time, I won’t have that. After he did it what did do ? That’s right ran straight to the dealer. I really don’t know if I’ve done the right thing because apart from a swollen arm there’s nothing else. I’m not scared of him. I’m fed up of him. I’ve tried to be supportive and he throws it back in my face. And then when I get angry and call him names which I know is wrong, his friend has told me I shouldn’t call him a crackhead he goes on about how nasty I am but he pushes me to this point. I feel so fake now days because I act like I’m happy to everyone in fear of the judgement or being rejected because people are so disgusted. I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I try to put on a brave face for everyone but inside I’m so broken. Im sick of crying and feeling so empty and worthless.
He owns the caravan but I have the tenancy agreement and the patch manager has said the caravan can’t be there. I’m so drained physically I can’t sleep properly because of it. Emotionally I feel destroyed i can’t keep up with my own emotions. One day I’ll be fine the next ranked with guilt and worry and then the angry and so much rage. While he was out ( I know this is bad) I went into his caravan i took his bank card although there’s no money to be had on it and even if there was i wouldn’t use it, his car key he has two cars shouldn’t be driving any he’s lost his licence, laptop and this electric car he’ll sell them all soon anyway for his fix he thinks he’s been broken into. I know its not right but im so sick of the grief he’s causing. I’ve had to cut my hours down at work to practically none existent because of childcare so I can’t afford to do Christmas this year, he was given 40,000 he could of gave me some for the kids for Christmas and then blew it but he didn’t now he’s penniless which means he ruined Christmas for them last year by abandoning them last year and this we can’t afford one. I feel like an absolute rubbish mum because of this ive always done Christmas by myself with any help from him but this year I needed help and he could of afforded to. I feel like things like this have played into the social services hands
Does anyone know how i can get him to leave ? He’s not actually in my house He’s in my garden in a caravan
I think what has just happened has made me realise he’s gone forever the man I love is gone. He’s horrible now. I just need him to leave my garden it’ll break me but its better than this. Im up at this hour because of him. As much as it will kill me I have to let him go.
Thank you x
I don’t even know what to talk about anymore. I just feel so alone with it all I’m too em and ashamed to talk to anyone. People can see I’m not not happy they ask but no ok. I haven’t told anyone that social services are involved now because of him my mum would hit the roof and I already feel like I’m being branded a bad parent even though it isn’t because of me. I’ve had thoughts i never thought I would because I’ve had enough of the agencies who are claiming their here to help clearly judging and making me feel worthless. Only reason I carry on is because of my children.
Wow I’ve read some of these and now I feel like there’s absolutely no hope. He’s been on crack at some point this month 18 months never been on it before but he’s took it to another level god knows how much he has a day but what I do know is since he got 40,000 inheritance 2 months it obviously got worse and all gone now. That’s how bad it is. I just dont know what to do. I feel like if I cut him off I’ll get a knock on door saying he’s dead but im sick of crying, sick of feeling anxious about what he’s doing just sick of it all. I have social services on my back and the council and i it’s stressing me out my kids have nothing to do with him and he doesn’t live in the house he’s in the garden in a caravan. After a text argument yes that’s how we communicate. He basically said he’s done with us. Bit rich. So I’ve tried to detach myself he’s mesaged me in the night I’ve ignored it, today he’s text claiming he’s rang network recovery but again I’ve ignored him. I don’t believe a word he says but at the same time I desperately want it to be true and him to get help and beat it. But after reading all this I don’t feel hopeful.
Sarahlou I hope your OK. My previous message wasn’t really for you I should of been more clear. Like bobby27 said tell us a bit more and we’ll try to help you.
What makes you use ? My ex i think the best way to describe him has been on it almost 18 months now he says he wants to be off it but does nothing about it. Claims he doesn’t know how much he’s on but he’s on alot i reckon. I want to shake him most the time to make him see the damage he’s caused to others