Thank you for you comments.
Today is a better day we have talked and discussed where we go from here. It is very difficult to u sweat and the damage I have caused but I see the pain and how angry she is at me.
I’ve been using heavily for the last 6 months with my longest clean time being about 2 weeks. As of recent, I have been using every few days. Once I start I simply cannot stop myself.
I’m doin meeting and have a sponsor and I’m going through the steps. I know what I have to do and just be honest with myself. You reached my “rock bottom” and it’s life or death for me now.
My wife cannot believ me and we have agreed that I cannot go back home until I get a clean drug test and I have a month to do this.
This is my last and final chance and I am not going to waste it.
My wife like other spouses of addicts really go through it and I’ve put her through hell. It’s disgusting what it does
