Hi chole how are you both doing? .I’m an alcoholic and a mum she’s a seven year old little girl .she lives with her father through my choice because of my behaviour when I drink .i shall be going back to my first AA meeting in two years again tomorrow to try to recover ,please be safe in the knowledge that as horrible as it is your mum is just really sick and its not in anyway a reflection of how she feels about you only herself and her lack of capabilities. if you do get a moment when she is listening try and explain to her there are thousands of us sick mothers and you wonderful daughters out there we’ve just got to be braver than we’ve ever been sometimes and get some help xxx