I had a heavy night again after 2 weeks ago saying never again. Cant get out of bed when im like this just feel full of guilt and shame that im letting my family down. I have deleted social media since reading the previous posts as that is a big trigger of mine seeing people out an about and think im missing out. Alcohol is what I crave sober and cocaine is what I crave drunk and have been spending a lot of money recently. Just sucks that I know ive messed up again and scared I will never beat this.