[danb]

Hi jenson

Reading you’re post almost brought a tear to my eye

2 reasons because I know what you’re going through and the second being knowing I’m not alone . I’m also 34 and grew up smoking weed as you did as a teenager .around the age of 21 I moved from the south coast to essex to work in a family business ( with the chance of really making something of my self and being financial stable ) this is when I found the worst substance like you cocaine . I also have a girlfreind of 13 years who has to this point out up with me but to be honest I’ve not had anyone to talk to about this . I’m now in the same position as you a grave or something stupid . I earn good money and have always held down my job it’s got to the point where the lies upon lies have no made my life he’ll I’m spending £500/£800 a week. That’s not a typo I’m not proud I’m a compleat mug and hate myself for doing this to me and the people around me esp my girlfreind who has to deal with the bullshit . I’m expecting my first child in January and I’m getting worse I’ve never posted or spoke to anyone about it . I know how you feel you’re not alone maybe it would be good to talk 2 people who don’t know each other u never know may do some good either way I hope we can both get this sorted people don’t understand how hard it is !

Also the porn thing goes hand in hand it’s horrible the thoughts that go through you’re head when ur on that shit yet we lay there at night and promise yourself never again then bang the trigger happens and you’re doing it again oeoole do t understand but we shouldn’t use that as excuse

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