[danman83]

It was diffucult ???? i just have to be stronger and be ready for next time.

Ive set reminders on my gf phone for friday 6pm and saturday 5pm for the next 5 week , for her to take my phone and car keys off me. This is just before i normally get it on every 3rd 4th week.

Hows your bf?

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Your daughter is right though. Even though its hard your really need to look after your self now. You have done your best like any mother would do, and just be there for your son if he needs help.

The circle of people you choose to hang around with dont help either.

What was he like before all this? Did he have a good job and kids?

You probably wont agree with me here, but i hear it alot about people blaming dealers and that. But people dont blame asda or the corner shop selling alcohol to alcoholics or cigs to people addicted to cigs. I blame most of it on our own choices. We could of always said no the 1st time. Its not a dealer who offers it you the 1st time. Its a mate.

I dont agree with dealers ringing people up pushing it on to people just to make money, knowing there in debt and watch them get in more debt.

Going back to the police, there are that many dealers now, there is not enough police to cope with it. There are so many now.

I hope it all works out in the end for you

[danman83]

Im on anti depres now. I think it because of the coke.

But what was making u depressed the ocd? Or something else?

[danman83]

Its all one big vicious circle with most things. Most times its something in our past that has done this to us.

[danman83]

Sorry i only just read your other post. I remember you now.. Theres that many people i talk to on here, and id remember them if there names was there real names but its usernames.

But going back to your son its like he is really stuck now if im being honest. Hes on the streets and all he will now know and associate is with people who have crack and spice. It is going to be hard for him to stop, but he really does need to take that treatment. As a parent i bet its heartbreaking for you. I couldnt think of anything worse watching your son do that to himself. Has he no brothers or sisters that could make him change his mind

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Does your wife know?

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Hows he doing now then? Thats spice is horrible stuff.

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Ive known a few people addicted to prescription drugs. And i can understand when i had tremadol once . That stuff is leathal. Do you get it off the doc then?

Have you seen a woman you tube called teal swan? Shes a young spiritualist and other things. But shes got loads of vids on you tube on addiction, mental health issues. And she talks so much sence and helps a great deal.

[danman83]

Thanks guys, your comments mean a lot. I think i am going to stay on now. It really does help me being on here as well ????

[danman83]

Im going through the same mate. But im lapsing every few week.

And a few times this year i have gone a month or 2 with out

1st u need to delete all dealers nums out your phone, even friends and family.

Quit drinking all together as alcohol is a main trigger to get coke. Come off all social media.

Start new hobbies to replace your shitty routine. Take up decorating or the gym. Have some acheiveable goals.

Try some C.A meetings. Also i find listening to cocaine recovery stories on you tube help.

But i strongly recommend watching louise clarke on you tube. Her videos on crack cocaine part 123. Shes a quailfied expert and helps u understand why we get addicted and how to quit.

But you really need do put the effort in.

[danman83]

Cheers gill. Im coming off here for about a month tommorow. I really need to focus on getting a month out the way.

[danman83]

Thanks jules. Tbh she never ever pulls it out like that. It was just that day that guy gave it her to sell. But i went mad at her. Then shes saying to me. Have some will power. Its frustrating. I sat her down last night and explained again everyone is not the same. Im really going to up my game from now on. Thanks

[danman83]

Thanks for the comment.. but i am now battling a cocaine problem so im not there yet. Im having it once every few week now. But i cant stand the stuff, and im doing everything possible to stop.

Sorry to hear about your son. Its every mothers worse nightmare. I told my mum and she was deverstated. And she helped and i stopped for 3 month last year sometime. But she thinks im totally off it and i dont want to admit im not as it will just make her worry.

Ive deleted all dealers nums now and facebook, instagram, watts app. The lot.

So whats happpend to your son then? What is he taking? Sorry if we have spoke before. I can not remember.

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Dont mater then sorry

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