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Ye true.. but if she wants us go her mates and i say no.. because they will be doing coke.. she has said.. its ok as long as your not doing it in the house on your own.and i end up going. But i should just have more will power and stay at home
Me personally id get rid. If you have no ties. She obv dont want to get help.
I have done. She said she has forgotten. But if it was the other way round i would be taking it off her straight away..
Shes not really suportive anyway. And i dont blame her tbh. But i dont hear it for days if i do use.. but shes had it with me aswell
Prob because she thinks i will.. and then she can say ive heard it all before, the next day when i say.. thats it im not doing it again.. or she probably just forgets lol
Hiya mate just seen this. Are you still struggling?
If i have a nap on the couch i wake up wanting it sometimes.. just to wake me up.. i told my gf i need her to help me.. and take my phone off me friday and sat night.. but she never this weekend. But if i log back into facebook. She soon makes me delete my account again. Am sure she wants me to fuk up
On one of your post it said you in debt coz of it.. are u? How come you drive so far for it? Does no one do it near you? Were abouts are you?
Its easier to get than a taxi on time lol thats how bad it is.
Thanks for the happy bday lol.
In the end no i never.. but it was so hard last night. Some one close to me sells it. Cant say on here and ive told them block my num. But they wont. But im glad i never got it in the end. And feel better today for not.
I tell my gf just one. But really can be up to 3. If i.go out i get 3. But she has some aswell. And may be one of her mates. But it sends my head west for days after. And i work nights. So its not good lol.
How much did you have?
And tbh a new job doesnt mean you wont.. alls it takes is meeting someone in that job who has it and your fuked lol. Sorry but im being honest.
Thats sounds good then, if he hasnt. I neally lapsed last night but i never. It was in my head every hour to get some. But i never. And im so glad i never .
Has he come back?
I take it your on about coke. Im going through coke probs now. And alcohol is the main trigger to get coke. Im lapsing once a month. I cant stand the stuff and im doing my best to quit..
The fact is how bad do you want to quit, and the obvious is that you cant drink anymore. You cant go out with anyone who has coke, have to delete all dealers numbers. And totally change your routine and life around.
Do you feel depressed and suicidal after it?
No never touched crack and ive no intentions to.. but cocaine is crack its just washed with bi carb .. i think..
Ye shes had it with me.. but she knows when to say no.. and i dont lol.
Dopamine is a chemical in the brain that makes you happy and sad. But when u have coke you use all your dopamine up.. and thats why u hit rock bottom soon after. Theres more about it on them vids.
No ive never tried groups. But i had 8 councilling sessions. Andthat helped i quit for 3 month.. and thought i was ok. But u never are. Im getting cravings bad tonight and its me bday aswell. But so far so good.
Also i listen to other cocaine recovery stories, and they help. And take my mind off getting. I give my gf my phone n car keys fri night. And she locks them in a safe.
I had enough of it because the comedowns are awful and i feel depressed for days and days. Its not good at all. And if i did something stupid. It will effect my kids a lot.
I know afew people that have killed them selfs from it. One of my mates ran a bath to drown himself. But he luckily he never went through with it..
Does your bf want quit??
What im doing to help me quit now.. and it helps…
Ive took up reading and now im reading about a guy who had a 24 year coke addiction and beat it.
He also has a podcast called the alan charles show.. theres about 50 ep on so far.. they are all about coke addiction. And listening to them help me
There is a woman on youtube called louise clarke.. watch her videos on crack cocaine part 123.. shes an expert and has helped people to quit and she goes into detail, why we go back to it and other things.
If you have coke for 6 month, even if its once a month your addicted to it bwt.
So ive accepted that.
And believe me a month or 2 or 3 month you or not ok from it!. Your brain wants it.. and it will trick you in to getting it..1 way is… its been 2 month you will be fine..when u wont.. cause arguments with family, just as an excuse.. in a mates house were they have it, and you think you will be ok. But you wont.
Yes i do.. i know 2 lads my age.. 35 i am.. who have had strokes from it.. when mixed with beer it makes another drug in your body..
Do you know what dopamine is?