[elaine24]

God knows… That’s a hard thing to say.

[elaine24]

I shall send to you now ????

Yes its a very common thought and I go thriugh that every day dude.

We need to sort it out for good, but it’s hard

[elaine24]

I have just got a non alcoholic cocktail of cucumber and raspberry…. And ordering the fastest desert so I sleep after the sugar rush

Are you OK?

[elaine24]

Oh mate I am so sorry to hear that.

You know something, when I’m away from certain people I can push through.

It’s all small steps but then something makes me crack.

We’ve had two close deaths recently, and it’s been hard but it’s no excuse.

They are just talking about it all and I just can’t deal with it

[elaine24]

Whatever!!!

My partner knows I ain’t happy…. And Half of me just wants to leave

[elaine24]

Not good….. My sister in laws are just so up their own backsides….

Not got any.

But want to just walk out…

I’m just not like them at all…. Tried to talk to them and got dismissed

[elaine24]

You know its true…. My head is just getting the better of me

[elaine24]

I did indeed and told him becuse of it I’ve overspent as well.

He is a great guy and adores us and works two jobs, but I do feel lonely when he works all of the time.

I think this is a def trigger where I feel lonely and then would want to call it on..

I am just trying to understand what the triggers are and how to stop them really.

What’s your story anyway?

[elaine24]

Yep exactly.

Hahahaha I think I want to have a good sober Xmas and just enjoy it.

I want to get some savings as I want to go florida next year… I just need the motivation now

[elaine24]

Well Dan I hope youve had a good day today with your DIY.

I’ve messaged a gym as per a friend’s recommendation, I’m putting all of my effort into looking buff for Xmas!

Going to start my counselling and beat this shit once and for all.

I can’t get a dog until we get a house, so I shall pretend my cat is a dog ????

[elaine24]

Sounds good! And will be good once you start seeing it all new etc.

Lol! Yeah her nickname is moo, but in a nice way. She’s lovely!

[elaine24]

Oh nice! What are you decorating?

Essex is where I live, so not far to get into london.

Mine is 8 too! And she is a moo! Lol

[elaine24]

Lol!

Only 5!

Im taking my daughter out into London tomorrow and then Sunday im with my friend and her son.

So I just need to try and stay focused.

How about you?

[elaine24]

Booooooooo

[elaine24]

Oh my god I totally forgot about KFC!! Send me some of that too with gravy lol

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