Treatment was my first step. I went and got help and stayed sober for a year and half but slipped. Relapsing happens and it’s okay if it does happen. Your fragile, so don’t beat yourself up. Remain strong! Get to meetings and get a support group.
As a alcoholic and cocaine addict I understand what your going through. It broke my heart when my mom found out I was doing coke but I’m glad she did cause she stepped in and helped me get the help I needed. You will lose everything trust me I did. The great thing is you are aware of the problem. Go talk to your family and get treatment. You got this!