Thank you so much for replying . I got myself a part time job and that has given me independence that I wasn’t allowed to have for a long time . I’ve started to write a book about my experience too .
For me it’s the loneliness after an abusive relationship with an addict . I don’t trust anyone . I’ve lived with lies every day for 5 years so for me walking out my front door every day is hard if that makes sense . I’ve thought about maybe finding someone else but then i panic at the thoughts . I don’t think I could ever be intimate with a man again . I think I’ll join al anon to get some support though and might make new friends through that .
I know none of the abuse was my fault but I just can’t stop thinking about if my ex will find someone new and treat her better … if that happens it will kill me inside . I think I’m emotionally damaged if that makes sense .
Anyway thank you for taking the time to reply to me and thank you so much for the advice x
