When I met her she’d been on coke socially for about 20 years with this group of friends. They’re all socially addicted. I though my girlfriend had changed since we had a conversation 3 years ago when she agreed to stop taking drugs. She still to this day tells me she’s not taken coke and its only the 3 occasions on holiday where she’s taken pills. Because of all the lies I’m now questioning if she’s had coke over the last 3 years, even if it’s only a tiny amount. I’m never going to know and I get what you’re saying about giving her drug tests after a night out but that really isn’t any way to live in my opinion. We’ve both been through previous marriages and I though this was our time now to find peace with one another and just live a nice life. I’m just shattered by this. I’m 40 now and she’s approaching 50. I don’t wanna live like this and the trust is ruined.
