[gemz37]

Don’t do it!! You have gone a few weeks, I’d give anything to say that these days. I’m just about managing the odd day or 2 off it.

I’m finding myself doing it now to do daily things, ie cleaning the house. Not even fun anymore. If I do t have it I’m exhausted and nothing gets done! I guess being a single mum of 2 and working/driving is becoming unbearable. Not to mention money worries, only to escape on that, which is costing me more! I attended a CA meeting the other week, I found it useful but I just don’t have the time to go.

Drinking and using is my only enjoyment (if you want to call it that) more escape from every day burdens of life!

[gemz37]

Iv ended up back on it again, I’m sick of it…. I’m struggling so hard and finding I needing it daily!

[gemz37]

Wow,

Thank you so much for your reply! It came in just at the right time as I feel like I’m ready to relapse.

Iv not touched any since I emptied that last bag and I’m determined to keep it that way.

I am attending a CA meeting this evening, it’s keeping my focused as it’s Friday evening and we all know how Fridays go.

Iv had a few coke friends message me asking what my plans are this evening, iv told them I’m busy.

The only real pain I’m suffering with is my body, I’m sleeping too much and my muscles ache so bad it’s making me want to get some just to help with that. But no! I’m keeping strong!

Your words really hit home with me, especially me having no emotion, no real love to feel and im taking it back!

Well done on 6 months clean….fantastic. Hopefully I will be helping others like yourself in 6 months time.

Take care

Gemma xx

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